oi!

oi pencuri!

kau amat pelik

dah la kau curi

kau jumpa aku lagi

oi pencuri!

simpan baik baik

benda yang kau curi

tiada ganti

aku relakan

kau simpan

oi aku!

aku pun si pelik

dia da curi

tapi aku suka.

hahahahati.

ter.

Kau?

terlentok

terlayu

ngantuk

tapi

tersengih

Aku?

tertengok

lalu

tergelak.

ha ha

sudah dua gerhana

engkau hadir tiba

sekilas pandang

bukan satu tapi dua

sudah dua gerhana

terjadi tragedi

mungkin

tuhan mahu aku menebus kembali

kebodohan

keangkuhan

kejahilan aku sebagai khalifah

aku terima tanggungjawab ini

dan selamat datang

ke alam aku

Hugo dan Melo.

anak kucing.

niat

selangkah ke ulat besi

terdengar suara mu

memuja tuhan

terpekik pekik

terlolong lolong

dengan lenggok lagu mu

dengan dengung syahdu mu

dengan idgham maalghunnah mu

terlihat riak

muka jelik si hipokrit

muka hodoh sang pendusta

niat mu

mungkin untuk akhirat mu

mungkin juga untuk akhirat umat nabi mu

maka untuk itu

teruskanlah niat mu.

hening

ragum kan mata ku
ragum kan hati ku
maka
biar masa yang tentu

kita adalah kita
lalukan mereka berkata
maka
biar masa beritahu segala

aku datang aku pergi
masa lepas tak dapat di ganti
aku tunggu





dan terus tunggu
masa depan yang ku cari cari.

kali ke berapa lagi?

kali ke empat
mulut luas
menganga
mata terpejam rapat
seuls demi seulas
mengalir air mata

gerak hati kata pergi
tapi kedengaran
jeritan dari poket
"jangan!"
"jangan biarkan aku kosong!"
"jangan biarkan aku sendiri!"

ini sudah kali ke lima
aku menguap
seperti naga

perlu ku tunggu kali keberapa?

oh bedebah!

hati oh hati!
kau memang bedebah debah!
bila aku pikirkan nya,
engkau
tak semena-mena
berdebar debar!


tapi aku suka.

just for a while.

i will weave my way
to a new journey
into the beautiful sun
into the eyes of the storm
let yesteryear be
let the track of my tears dry
and let me smile for a while.

yesterday

it feels like heaven and hell merging
it feels like inhaling water instead of air
it feels like everything and nothing at the same time
it feels like pain without a cut or bruises
it feels like the sun is cold
it feels like the time has stopped
it feels like storm during peace
it feels like an empty heart that pierce
it feels like bleeding tears
it feels like crying blood
it feels like winter during summer
it feels like the cloud nd the sky hate each other
it feels like your soul dividing into pieces
it feels like melancholy and rhapsody together
it feels like holding the air
it feels like having breakfast during dinner
it feels like cursing the saint
it feels like a muted primadona
it feels like tomorrow is yesterday.

aku tanya abah

tepu benak
fikir sejenak

apa itu

hm...

kenapa mesti

hmm...

bagaimana untuk

hmmm...

hidup?


jawapan abah.
"nak jawapan?"
teruskanlah.
hidup.

Monolog kepada Cahaya

Ke hadapan Sang Matahari
Ke hadapan Sang Bulan

aku lemah tanpa kamu,
gugur segenap kudrat,
buta segenap kata,
dusta sehasta dunia,
puja sang pujangga,
gila sang arjuna.

tapi aku bukan siapa,
bukan sang pujangga,
bukan sang arjuna,

aku adalah engkau,
dan kita adalah esa.

terhenti deras jantung,
jika melepas kan kamu,
maka dosa itu aku yang punya,
maka gelap lah sang gerhana,
gelap lagi sang jiwa.

masa lalu itu racun,
membunuh sedikit,
menghakis perlahan,
bahagiakah aku begini?

kalau hati ini boleh dibahagi,
kan ku tetak di tengah,
bagi sekata,
bagi serupa,
bagi kepada mu dewi dewi,
bagi adil,
bagi saksama.

biar kosong kelosong jiwa,
agar aman indah dunia mu.
kerna bahagia mu,
adalah bahagia bagi ku.






mimpi yang indah wahai dewi dewi ku.

biar~

biar putih mata hitam ku
biar kaku tulang temulang ku
akan ku akur titah Mu
agar hakiki ketenangan ku.








selamat menyambut awal muharam!

Once

he just a boy,
his charm,
his eye,
his mind,
told us a story.

but his heart,
his soul,
no story can tell.

he smile in his sleep,
he cry in his dream,
he laugh in his head.

call him crazy,
call him a liar,
call him a sinner,
call him obsolete,
call him a fraud,
he will fake a smile,
and pass-by.

his past is clear,
his present is blur,
his future is out-of-sight,
but never out of blight.

so he chose,
so he begged,
so he turns,
so he cracks,
so he fight,
and he flight.

cursed him.
cursed.
and cursed.

but he will move on,
but he will walk-away.

and he will fly,
and leave all behind,
after all,
he just a boy.
he just a human being.





once there was a boy......

show

show me the way,
where truth is a lie,
because i dont want to stay,
when guilt subsides

it's hard,
really,
it's really hard.

what path,
which way,
how to act,
for my consciences,
be at bay

show me the place,
where angel's a sinner,
where devil's a saint,
through darkness,
through fear,
into the light,
that always be near.





show me.

God's Poem

"so lose not heart, nor fall into despair:
for ye must gain mastery if ye are true in Faith"








(Al-Imran,139)

touching the sky

i am keeping
my feet on the ground
in order
to touch the sky.






being humble.

euphoria

you/kau!

you
made my time worthwhile
made me sing my heart out
made me nervous till my hands turn cold

just one hour of happiness
hearing your voice clearing my darkness
watching you walk made me lose my breath

i'm honoured
seriously i am.
for what i have done.
but thank you.
for being bold and brave.
thank you.



kau!

dust

dust.
its just a dust in my eyes.
f*ck. *sob*
"its just a f*cking dust ok?!"
and then a question flash in my mind.
"if its a dust,
why do my tears wont stop flowing?"




dust.

3:18am

3:18am
i woke
in the darkness
i counted

one



two



three



i.
miss.
her.

3:18 in the morning.