aku tanya abah

tepu benak
fikir sejenak

apa itu

hm...

kenapa mesti

hmm...

bagaimana untuk

hmmm...

hidup?


jawapan abah.
"nak jawapan?"
teruskanlah.
hidup.

Monolog kepada Cahaya

Ke hadapan Sang Matahari
Ke hadapan Sang Bulan

aku lemah tanpa kamu,
gugur segenap kudrat,
buta segenap kata,
dusta sehasta dunia,
puja sang pujangga,
gila sang arjuna.

tapi aku bukan siapa,
bukan sang pujangga,
bukan sang arjuna,

aku adalah engkau,
dan kita adalah esa.

terhenti deras jantung,
jika melepas kan kamu,
maka dosa itu aku yang punya,
maka gelap lah sang gerhana,
gelap lagi sang jiwa.

masa lalu itu racun,
membunuh sedikit,
menghakis perlahan,
bahagiakah aku begini?

kalau hati ini boleh dibahagi,
kan ku tetak di tengah,
bagi sekata,
bagi serupa,
bagi kepada mu dewi dewi,
bagi adil,
bagi saksama.

biar kosong kelosong jiwa,
agar aman indah dunia mu.
kerna bahagia mu,
adalah bahagia bagi ku.






mimpi yang indah wahai dewi dewi ku.

biar~

biar putih mata hitam ku
biar kaku tulang temulang ku
akan ku akur titah Mu
agar hakiki ketenangan ku.








selamat menyambut awal muharam!

Once

he just a boy,
his charm,
his eye,
his mind,
told us a story.

but his heart,
his soul,
no story can tell.

he smile in his sleep,
he cry in his dream,
he laugh in his head.

call him crazy,
call him a liar,
call him a sinner,
call him obsolete,
call him a fraud,
he will fake a smile,
and pass-by.

his past is clear,
his present is blur,
his future is out-of-sight,
but never out of blight.

so he chose,
so he begged,
so he turns,
so he cracks,
so he fight,
and he flight.

cursed him.
cursed.
and cursed.

but he will move on,
but he will walk-away.

and he will fly,
and leave all behind,
after all,
he just a boy.
he just a human being.





once there was a boy......

show

show me the way,
where truth is a lie,
because i dont want to stay,
when guilt subsides

it's hard,
really,
it's really hard.

what path,
which way,
how to act,
for my consciences,
be at bay

show me the place,
where angel's a sinner,
where devil's a saint,
through darkness,
through fear,
into the light,
that always be near.





show me.

God's Poem

"so lose not heart, nor fall into despair:
for ye must gain mastery if ye are true in Faith"








(Al-Imran,139)

touching the sky

i am keeping
my feet on the ground
in order
to touch the sky.






being humble.

euphoria

you/kau!

you
made my time worthwhile
made me sing my heart out
made me nervous till my hands turn cold

just one hour of happiness
hearing your voice clearing my darkness
watching you walk made me lose my breath

i'm honoured
seriously i am.
for what i have done.
but thank you.
for being bold and brave.
thank you.



kau!

dust

dust.
its just a dust in my eyes.
f*ck. *sob*
"its just a f*cking dust ok?!"
and then a question flash in my mind.
"if its a dust,
why do my tears wont stop flowing?"




dust.

3:18am

3:18am
i woke
in the darkness
i counted

one



two



three



i.
miss.
her.

3:18 in the morning.

struck

blinding light struck my eyes
struck fear in my mind
struck guilt in my heart

for the loss i bear
for the sorrow you felt
with chains locked between my feet
how could i flee and be free?



have you ever been in situation you can't run away from?

kata

ungkapkan kata indah
biar tenang hati itu
biar hanya kata
bukan mimpi
bukan ilusi
bukan fantasi

hanyalah kata.


hanyalah kata.

ulanghari ku

langit berubah
merah ke biru
tanda masanya telah tiba
untuk ku berlalu
meniti puing puing batu
singgah mencari bekalan
untuk teruskan kehidupan
melintas jalan besi
menunggu limosin pagi

sesaat

sedetik

sepintas

masa terus pergi
meninggalkan ku sendiri
ku gagahi hari ini
untuk hari esok yang tak pasti.



isnin-jumaat ku.

star

star star
up in the sky
why do i wish upon you
why do i jump and pick
where i should let you be

star star
grant my wish
and let her sleep
well and care
for this pain i can't bear
let her laugh and smile
for every tears i can't hold

star star
up in the sky
why do i wish upon you?


i wish for her every night.

detik ini

sebelas tiga puluh tujuh malam
satu disember
dua ribu sembilan tahun
muka ini di cipta

dialog kosong
harap memberi makna
catitan perjalanan
yang tercipta

kaki yang memaksa
besar hati ini ku beri

terima kasih.